Since one of my goals is to answer the 50 questions that will free your mind I thought I’d ‘crack on’ it’s something I’ve been saying a lot recently especially to other people.
I’m looking at doing five while I procrascinate doing ‘real’ stuff, of which there is much that I should be doing and nothing that I can face doing. So firstly
1) How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
When people ask I usually forget I’m nearly 30 and claim to be around 22 – 23. I guess it’s a good age, you’ve just finished uni if you’ve gone you’re still young enough people don’t expect you to be a grown up and know what you want to do or have an amazing job or anything. It’s a nice age. I’d like to be there again.
2) Which is worse, failing or never trying?
Failing is hard but never trying is just throwing your life away. I have no interest in doing nothing not anymore, watch me fail gloriously!
3) If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
Well we all have to work right? I don’t know about anyone else but I for one hate getting up every morning, travelling 1-2 hours to work, spending 8 hours in an office even if you love your job! Then travelling 1-2 hours home afterwards. It’s exhausting and I hate it and it has a knock on effect on every other aspect in my life. Including the most important one of me being able to keep a roof over my head… And that was a rant.
As to the rest of it honestly it’s something I’m trying to get a handle on, I have a lot of things I don’t do because I might not like it and a lot of things I do because I feel like I should. I want to stop that and it’s something I’m working on.
Why do we do it? Because we feel like we should. Because society tells us that doing this makes us a good productive member of the world and that’s what we’re supposed to be above and beyond everything else even at the exclusion of our own health and wellbeing… And that’s another rant.
4) When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
If we were being measured today? Probably. Up to now I haven’t done much with my life but I’m working on both sides of this. I’m working on shutting up when I’m supposed to and getting on and doing the many many things I actually want to do rather than just sitting and talking about them.
I think I’m evening the score but there’s work to be done and that’s what the whole project zero thing is about making myself proactive and getting on with interesting things.
5) What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
All of the above? I don’t know this is the harder one for me to come up with. I’d like to stop the need for money but then I like the things I can buy with money when I occasionally have some spare. I’d like people to stop being dicks towards each other. I’d like to end the fact that it seems OK to say “I’m not sexist/racist etc but….”
Stopping people being dicks seems to cover most of my complaints.
Now I said I was going to answer five but you see I’m in a chatty mood and have no one to talk to except for the internet, you’ll listen to me right? So I’m going to carry on all the way up to ten. Sadly not eleven because I am aiming for round numbers not spinal tap references. (I’m not old enough for spinal tap).
6) If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
Entertaining people with my stories and ideas. I adored the Saturday night reactions of my LRP players when they wanted to talk about what we’d done to them and how cool that was. I like the thought that people are enjoying something I’ve come up with and created even when that’s table top and I’m so excited to ever get something out there for other people to read.
So more of what I want to do more of anyway, just sadly when money is the currency it’s never going to make me rich.
7) Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
There are many aspects of my life where I’m settling and again I’m trying to make these go away by spending more time on the things I want to do. As for what I believe in.. I believe in being good to people, I think I do a lot of that but there’s always room for improvement.
8) If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
I would have travelled more, I would already have kids because I am already getting depressed over the fact that is probably never going to happen and I am not quite thirty. I honestly cannot tell you if a shorter life span would mean I was nicer or meaner to people. I am fairly sure I would have less space in my life for fools though.
9) To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
It would certainly be an acute angle. I haven’t my life has floated along. For most of it. Most of my choices have been what I sense said would be right not what my heart thought was a good idea.
Most of my regrets centre around floating from one thing that seemed like the sensible choice to the other and frankly it’s been boring. Now I’m playing the numbers game and trying to hit all the things that makes me happy and hoping something sticks.
It’s not really controlling the course of my life but it feels a bit better than waiting to see what happens.
10) Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
Doing the right things right, because doing the right things wrong doesn’t help anyone and doing the wrong things right is a waste of time. So always do the right things right.
And that’s me for today… At least it wasn’t a writing post right? I’m not sure how many of these questions opened my mind, but I have persuaded myself I’m on the right track for my future. I hope it works.